Non-Attachment On The Mat

There is so much content out there

about what we should and should not do.

To heal. To awaken. To regulate.

To open. To become flexible, mobile,

whole.

We are always looking for something.

The next sensation. The next level.

The return of something we once felt.

We orchestrate moments

to bring back what has already passed.

I have done this too.

Will my class feel like last time?

Will that quiet peace find me again at the end?

Will my words stumble?

Am I growing, or have I reached a plateau?

If I have, I tell myself to reach for a book, to keep growing.

This is the thinking mind,

the chatter that moves in every direction.

Then there’s contemplation,

the thought that travels in one direction,

a beam of light searching for meaning.

Then concentration,

when the beam becomes a single point.

And finally, meditation,

when there is no beam at all,

only awareness itself.

The moments of bliss arise here,

in the space beyond effort.

When I am in alignment with the moment.

When there is no thought, no wanting.

A quiet radiance that fills everything.

A slice of something vast and wordless.

But the mind plays its game.

Chasing that light is still desire.

Even saying, “I will not chase”

is desire disguised as discipline.

So how do I let go?

Maybe the answer is in trust.

To meet each breath as it is.

To bow to each wobble as a teacher.

To stop demanding the sacred

and instead notice that it is already here.

Everything we want is already here, within us.

It’s been buried under all the noise, but it is here.

Awaiting to be unveiled.

Non-attachment is not a goal.

It is a softening,

a surrender to what is already happening.

It’s a long exhale…

Perhaps,

we let go by being present,

and we stay present by letting go.